I cannot delete my blog because I have never been good at throwing things away so I will just make a new one and leave this to dwell in its own sadness in case I need to come back to it one day and cry.

I haven’t used this blog for a while and looking back at it is making me sad so I am going to delete it and start again. Time to move forward and make a blog that lets me feel more positive. Bye bye everyone, thank you for your time.

sometimes i find it hard to remember you and that scares me a lot, i wonder if i dreamt up the whole thing and it goes blurry in my head and i think that maybe it never even happened at all because it was so easily thrown away. but other times the pain overwhelms me and i know that everything was very real, i can remember the warmth of your neck where i used to rest my head and the way your fingers fitted perfectly between mine and all those little things that made me sure that we were a jigsaw that fitted together. i dream about you every night and that’s why i get confused, but i never want to stop dreaming about you because then i would have nothing left. sometimes my memories get mixed up with my dreams. all i know is that i miss you a lot and i cannot imagine ever loving anyone else.